
This post is in response to a prompt I found through
Mama Kat's Writer's Workshop. I love her blog, you should check her out!! Anyways, on to the fears. ;)*btw, these are in no particular order, since I can not think of a way to logically order my fears. :)
1) Having to bury my babies. I think this is at the top of every mommy's list.
2)Coincidently, my babies having to bury me. I know
eventually, they will probably have to, but what I mean is before they are grown. Before they are men, before they are married, before I have grandbabies. It happened to me, and I worry every day about my boys having to go through the pain of losing a parent when they are still just kids.
3) Tornadoes. We live in a trailer. I don't have a car. Enough said.
4) Never being successful at anything. I used to think I just wanted to be a mommy, but recently I am not sure if that is enough for me. I think that I want to
do something, that i want to
be something, and although I am not sure what exactly that something is, I am deathly afraid that I will never reach it. I think this ties into my next fear:
5) Having to struggle my whole life. I understand that we have to struggle financially right now. We are young, we have two kids, only one of us has a job, we have debt, we have bills, blah blah, f-ing blah. But, what if we never get financially stable? What if we are living paycheck forever? I can't even stand to think about it, I feel like I'm going to hyperventilate.
6) home invasion/attacker/burglar. I check the locks like 10 times a night. I'm really afraid someone's going to come in here and get me. I can't stand to be home alone with the babies. Partially the reason that I keep this horribly behaved pit bull. (just kidding, i heart my little Tucky!)
7) car crashes. me being in one, or someone I love being in one. For some reason, this fear is always more prevalent on holidays.
(don't ask me!) I guess I am afraid someone is going to die on a holiday. Like it wouldn't hurt if they died on another day? geez, i'm weird.
I was supposed to go to 10, but I really think that's all. I mean there are things I don't
like, like snakes, roaches, spiders, mice, etc... but I don't think I really
fear them. I guess that's a good thing, right? Better to have 7 fears than 10?
Tell me, what are some of
your biggest fears?