Sunday, January 13, 2013

That Girl I Used To Be

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I've been doing a lot of thinking about the girl that I used to be, before i became mommy. That girl is so far removed from who I am today, it's hard sometimes for me to believe that I could even be that girl.

I miss a lot of things about that girl. Namely, her perky boobs and nice figure. I miss that she never worried about how the bills were gonna get paid, or what was going to be for dinner tomorrow night. I miss how she had friends, went places, did things. I miss how she could just decide she was going somewhere, and just go. I miss all her cute clothes, shoes, jewelry.

But the more I get to thinking about it, maybe that girl wasn't as great as I thought she was.

That girl was kind of a hoochie mama. She was boy-crazy, and she tried too hard to keep herself from falling in love.

That girl didn't appreciate anything she had. She never had to work for it, never had to struggle, and she took things for granted.

That girl talked too loud, cussed like a sailor, and drank way too much. She wore too much makeup and her skirts were too short.

That girl might have had a lot of friends, but at the end of the day, she didn't have the unconditional love of 2 babies and a good man. In fact, she was always kind of lonely.

That girl didn't know who her true friends were, she tried too hard to impress people, she did too many stupid things to make people like her.

That girl liked to bitch about the things in life that she didn't have, and all the people who screwed her over.

That girl hurt a lot of people with her selfish pride. She was greedy. Judgmental.

Ugh. Maybe I don't miss that skinny bitch as much as I thought. I think I like this girl better. :)

This girl stays at home. She cleans and cooks. She loves her babies. It's boring, but she's happy.

This girl has two "good" shirts (they are tee-shirts), and one "nice" pair of jeans (they are maternity, but hey, who's lookin?).

This girl found a good man, and six years later, he's still her best friend. He works his ass off to take care of their family. She knows his sacrifice and she appreciates it greatly.

This girl doesn't take her family for granted. She knows they could be gone in the blink of an eye.

This girl doesn't complain when things get hard, she knows they could always be worse.

This girl would do anything to help anyone. She knows she could be the one needing help next time.

This girl doesn't judge. She only loves.

Yes, I think I will stick with this girl :)

15 comments:

  1. Great post, definitely from the heart. Motherhood definitely gives us a very different perspective on life doesn't it? I think it usually changes us for the better.

    #31DBBB visiting. Keep it up! Peace. ;)

    Michelle @ greenearthbazaar.com

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  2. What a great post! You may as well have been talking about me! I love your #2 Mom picture too! Awesome! Thanks for the follow from PRP! I'm a new follower of your blog too!

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  3. HI! I appreciate you stopping over at my blog and the follow, following you right back. OH, Your bean, and my first grandchild were born on the same day! She is my Li'l Priss. Love your site!

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  4. I'm glad you found happiness. I hope you find a little more love for the old you, too -- she sounds like she had a lot of good qualities.

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  5. Love this post! Speaking from the heart! Love it love it!

    Btw, thanks for dropping over and commenting, and following! I'm here to return the favor! Hope to see you back in my blog sometime! Cheers! :)

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  6. Visiting from 31DBBB! What a sweet post. It is amazing to look back at how things have changed. I can hardly remember what life was like just 2 years ago before I had my first - what did I do with all my free time? Now we have 2 precious boys - wouldn't change it for the world. Thanks for reminding me!

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  7. LOVE this post!! I do the same thing sometimes...yearn for that skinny premom girl I used to be. But you're right...she ain't all I remember her to be!!

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  8. Awesome post - well said girl.

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  9. Isn't it great to finally grow up!! Wish everyone did it- the world would be a much better and less selfish place for sure!

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  10. Sometimes I think it's impossible to stop having SOME sort of yearning for what was/what could have been. I absolutely love my kids and husband to death. I love my life and am happy. But some days I still think about the freedom that was in the 'before motherhood' days! Great post.

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  11. Awesome post and so very true. There are times when I miss my old self. But then I look at what I have now and I think - the only thing I miss about her is her smaller butt. :o)

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  12. I love this post. it's what made me decide to follow you. You sound much more awesome now than the girl you were before :o)

    Have a great weekend!

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  13. Love this post and I am now following you TPRP as well!

    Thanks!

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  14. This is an awesome post! You are a great writer! Thanks for stopping by and following my blog- I did the same!

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