You guys. I started this blog thirteen, almost fourteen years ago. I cannot even believe that it has been that long. When I first started blogging, my oldest son was only four, and I was pregnant with my baby boy. If I'm being completely honest, my blog started during a time of immense turmoil in my life. My mom had been dead for right about ten years, and my dad for about six years. I was in a horrible place in my life, relationship-wise, financially, even the home we physically lived in was falling apart, just like my heart.
I was yearning for something, some sort of outreach, some connection with the outside world, to help me realize that I wasn't actually alone. When I think about that time in my life, it breaks my heart for the girl that I was back then. I was really incredibly lost and I really just needed someone to save me. It would take me almost a decade to come to the realization that no one was coming, and that I would have to find a way to save myself.
Now, here I am, many years later. My oldest son is a senior in high school, getting ready to graduate and turn 18 in just a few months. My baby boy, the one that was in my belly when I started this blog, is turning 14 this year, and is taller than me. I cannot believe how far the three of us have come in this life.
This blog, which started out as a way for me to share my life and connect with people and brands all over the world, has also changed a lot over the years. Gone are my days of blogging about toddlers who wouldn't sleep, and sharing the latest and greatest Christmas toys with you guys.
I thought for a long time about the possibility of shutting down my blog, but I just can't do it. I honestly feel like it is another one of my kids.. I have carried it around with me just like those two little boys, through health issues, divorce, moves, failures and triumphs. Even if there have been times where this blog hasn't been at the top of my list of things to do, I always come back to it. Writing has always been my true passion, and hopefully now that my boys are older, and my life is in a more stable place, I can get back to what I love.
Parenting teenagers, obviously, is going to be an ongoing topic for this blog. My boys will always be at the top of any priority list, and I'll continue to share with you guys going forward, about parenting teens, who are getting ready to fly the nest and go out into the world. As my boys become adults, I'll continue to blog about what it is like to parent adult children, which makes me shiver to think about- what a scary fucking thought!
Also, I'm going to continue to blog about a topic that is important to me, but that I have been so hesitant to write about in the past. Parenting without parents, growing up without parents, loss, grief, all of the very big and deep and horrible feelings that come along with losing my parents before the age of 18. I know I am not the only person in the world who is dealing with this, even people whose parents are alive but not in their lives, I'm sure the feelings there are similar as well. I know how much it would have been to me to be able to find similar content when I was going through such a rough time in my younger years.
So, my dear friends who have been along for this very long and rough ride, I appreciate you. New friends, I'm so glad you're here. Brands, I'm still happy to hear from you and work with you- reach out anytime! I am excited to see what the future holds for us! Happy holidays to all of you and wishing you a wonderful New Year!
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