Monday, January 8, 2018

Guys, I Did A Thing. #Blogging #Comeback #JobLoss

Guys. I need to talk to you. 

You know I don't have like "people" that I talk to. 

I don't have a mom, I don't have a ton of friends. It's mainly just me, and my guy. And my kids. 

And Y'all. Y'all are always here. 

That's why I'm here. To tell you guys something. 

I did a thing, guys. 

A scary thing. A potentially bad thing. A potentially life changing, life altering thing. 

But also, a potentially great thing. 

A thing that could change all the things going forward. And could change my life. 

It could change life for my kids, and get me out of this hole I have been in for most of my life. 

I quit my job guys. 

Yep, I just quit it. 

You know how you have one of those like "epiphany" like out of bodyish almost moments? 

Yeah, I hadn't either. Til last week.

And I stood there. At my job. The same one I have been at since I was 16 years old. (Yes, that is 15 years. I am aware of this). 

Waiting tables, doing the same things I have been doing every day of my life. 

Getting talked to in ways that no human should ever be talked to. 

Getting talked ABOUT in ways that no human should ever be talked about. 

Dreading each and every day of waking up and going there.

Barely making enough money to pay the very, very minimal bills that my income needs to pay at this point. 

And, really, yall, it was like an out of body experience. As stupid as that sounds. 

I was done. I had had enough, and I didn't even think I could get out of there fast enough. It was almost like I was physically sick. 

So, that was it. 

I quit my job. 

And here I am. 

My wonderful boyfriend, of course, is the most supportive man on the face of the planet. All he said was "it's about time". 
When I started applying for jobs, he stopped me. 

And he turned me back to this laptop. 

He knows how much I love blogging. 

He knows how much I love you guys.

I have had this blog for eight years now, since before my little baby Bean was born. Now, hes getting ready to go into third grade. 

This blog has given myself, my family, some amazing opportunities that we wouldn't otherwise have. 

However, in the past few years, I have put it on the back burner. Almost to the point of being nonexistent. 

It simply wasn't important anymore. Work was important. Getting up and getting out of the house was important. Paying the bills was important. The rat race was important. 

I lost it guys, I lost my passion for what I love to do, and I lost my love for blogging. 
I want it back. I want it back so bad. I want to get it all back to where I was before. 
My wonderful boyfriend has my back. He handed me my laptop and told me this is the job I need to be doing. A job I love, a job where I am at home with our four kids, where I'm not standing on my feet all day, where the stress isn't literally killing me. 
Me, I'm not so sure. I've never believed in myself worth a shit. So, can I do this? Can I make blogging my full time real life job? Idk. But I'm going to give it a damn good shot.

I'm going to try my very hardest and see what I can make of this blog. I'm going to give it my all. I'm going to work it morning, noon and night. I'm going to network. I'm going to grow my social media. I'm going back to my real life posts. I'm going to share my life with you guys. I'm going to make something of this, and of myself. 

And I'd be honored if you would come along for the ride. I know I haven't been around much, I know a lot of you have probably given up on me. But, if you have it in your heart, give me another chance. Give me a chance to show you how important this blog and my family are to me. 

If you are a fan, that hasn't visited my blog in awhile, come back and see me. Give me another chance. If you are a client or a company that I have worked with, and you have also given up on me, give me one more try to make it right. Let me show you guys exactly what I can do! 

I'm excited to take this journey with you guys. Thanks for all of the love and support. It means more than you will ever know! 

1 comment:

  1. I'm glad you are back. Can't wait to see what awesome things you are going to blog about. I don't have many people that I talk to either. We should get together soon and talk. I have started a small resale business out of our house. Maybe we can bounce ideas off of each other so that both are sucessful in what we are doing. Love ya girl.


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