Wednesday, January 21, 2015
On Starting Over.
It's really funny how life works out, isn't it? Just when you get to the point that you think you know how the rest of your life is going to play out, it all changes, turns upside down and leaves you wondering just what could possibly happen next. After ten years and two kids together, my husband and I are getting a divorce. We have been separated for about six months now, and that in and of itself has been a learning experience. It's really hard to learn how to be independent again. It's really hard to know what to do, just in general. I'm learning that I'm not nearly as sure about my life as I thought I was, and I am sort of trying to pick up the pieces again. One thing I am not very good at is "winging it", and that is all I am doing these days, so that makes for a pretty interesting time. I really don't know where things are going for me in the future, and its really weird to be completely starting over when you are nearing 30.
Despite all the bad parts, as cheesy as it sounds, I am finding myself again. I think that I kind of forgot who I was for awhile there, and my head truly feels clear for the first time in a long time. I am remembering who I am, who I was, who I still can be, and that's a pretty good feeling. I'm laughing harder than I have in years, and that is the best feeling ever. It's all really weird and really strange to me at this point, but I am working on it. I am rambling, but I still am having a hard time getting my thoughts together and putting them into words. Hopefully that will change soon and I will be able to get back to my normal blogging self. Wish me luck you guys! :)
Posted by Dawn at 9:53 PM